Wonder Land
December 26th, 2007About six weeks ago or so, I got busy, and dropped out of online RV stuff to focus on what was at hand.
A few weeks later, I wandered back into the TKR Forum, and happened to read a rather old thread that had been kicked back up.
I recalled that I was rather irked for several reasons when posting on the thread, but still, it was hard not to notice…
…what a cranky uptight jerk I sounded like. Even to people I actually really like.
That isn’t who I am when I’m not burned out on something. That’s not who I want to be.
I figured it’s a sign I need to back off and focus on other things in life for awhile, so I’ve been doing that.
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I have to task the TKR Mission this week. And some other things that are dragging me reluctantly back online for a bit. But I hope to be out of the loop much of Spring.
Of course, I have half a dozen interviews lined up that I’m not doing because I’m offline. That’s a problem, sigh. Haven’t decided what to do about that yet. Might have to try to crunch them into the second half of January and get them over with so I can wander off again.
I’ve a few major projects in process that I’m not doing because I’m offline. Lucky everyone working with me on them is so patient.
Not to mention I’ve a lot of viewer friends I’m not much talking to because I’m offline most the time.
But I trust things will go on just fine without me, thanks in part to TKR’s staff and thanks in part to the proactive enthusiasm of dojo viewers and my friends, in the various online corners where they sometimes lurk.
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After literally going longer without even *thinking* about Remote Viewing than I have in many eons, I woke up one morning recently with a radical attitude adjustment.
I realized, suddenly, that I don’t know anything about it.
I don’t mean the subject, the protocol, or 47 other aspects we could wax on about. I mean actually DOING IT. Sure, I can do it technically. I could teach a few formal methods, I’ve developed a couple fairly unique approaches myself, and there’s the 2.7 million variants on “just do it” as well.
What I mean is, I think that every thing I think about RV is a belief system.
A filter I’ve been too close to see.
An assumption I’ve been too close to question.
I think the mind automatically tries to backtrack from every observation and experience and come up with a ‘why’.
I suddenly felt that everything I THINK I know about performing remote viewing is, in fact, an albatross to the process of actually doing it.
I had the feeling, all the sudden, that viewing sometimes went well despite me, not because of me.
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My goal for 2008 with viewing is to start over. To pretend I know zero about the doing-it-part, and just let every session be anything it wants to be, without models and structures.
To be as spontaneous as humanly possible.
To put no judgement on the process for now.
To let it be like an artistic movie: something I don’t have to understand or agree with. Something that is an art form and a mystery and all that matters is how I feel inside and what it means to me. Which can be different every session, every instant.
No labels. No conclusions. No theories!! Just experience. Just letting it happen however it will.
We’ll see what happens.







